Samstag, 23. Januar 2016

Don't let them drag you down

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I went on and did all the things you said that I wouldn't and all in spite of you.



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It's funny how people only see what they want to see. They think I'm confident and don't even believe me when I honestly tell them I'm not.
Because nowadays honesty is basically the same as confidence and courage.



I think it's amazing how some girls fall in love and suddenly they're all warm and fuzzy with feelings.
I never think of boys more warmly than "Wow, I've been talking to you for five minutes and I only want to kill you since two"




I always wondered what it felt like to be the hot beautiful girl all the guys wanted.
I can't even be the almost cute girl anyone wants to hang with.



I've had enough last year.
This year I'm making a lot of changes in my life.
If you don't hear from me, you are one of them.











People can only hurt you if you let
 them.











And we might not have much but we've got each other and most days that is everything.










The best moments are when you do something not because you have to but because you personally need to









Freitag, 8. Januar 2016

A little too much

Sometimes you have to allow yourself to be weak. It's no weakness to accept you feelings.







I avoid looking people straight in the eyes, because they speak the truth when everything else is a lie, and I'm scared of telling too much.











The truth is people hate winning.
When you always win you start getting expectations and become fearful of not being able to fulfill them.
But at the same time they hate losing even more.
People can't stand anyone who's better than them, they rather feel empathy than jealousy.

And that's why they always try to win.











 I love getting complimented but I never believe.
I see beauty in everyone except for myself.


















I'm the person everyone replaces after some while








First they tell you to be yourself.
Then, when you're open and vulnerable, they judge you.

















And all my ex-friends think it's okay,
it's all forgotten, in the past.
But these kind of wounds,
they last and they last.












I grew up with a lot of dreams, plans of who I want to be.
None of them were mine.
There were many rumors about me, my repution.
It was all just a lie.









Some nights I would just stay awake until the world turned black and white.
Searching for a light in the dark, and think about life.
I wasn't depressed or sad.
I was just lost, mistaking the traffic lights for stars and falling down instead of reaching high, without even realizing.










We used to be inseperable.
And that's how I started believing I was irreplaceable.

Freitag, 1. Januar 2016

New Year, new life

Boah Leute ich fass euch nihct *-* Anfang des Jahre noch keine 3k, jetzt schon über 10k Aufrufe, ihr seid soo toll *-* Das muss belohnt werden <3



Living is the art of drawing without an eraser.



















New year's resolution:
Let them all kiss my perfectly shaped butt.











If you wanted to piss me off once more in 2015, I'm sorry but you missed your chance.










Don't be sad if you didn't get a New Year's kiss, Valentine's Day is in 45 days and you'll probably be alone for that, too.











2015 taught me a lot.
I learned things don't always go as planned, hell some don't even go as they should.
Some broken things cannot be fixed and that's something I have to accept, it's okay.
No matter how hard I wish, I can't change too much, I still have to be myself.
But mostly I learned that all of this is okay as long as you have beloved people who are there for you when times get rough.


2016 I will not stop eating chocolate, I will not have the best grades of all, I will not sleep enough or drink enough, I will not be nice to people I hate and I won't stop being emotional for people I love.
I will still have my issues, I will deal with them every morning when I get up and every night when I go to sleep.
But I will stay me. And that's great, too.




This year will be different.
I told myself 2015.
I told myself 2014.
I told myself 2013.
I'm still laughing.